Why am I crushed?

I have had the most horrifying experience.
It broke my heart. I can't cope.
I am destroyed on the inside.
I have not slept well since it happened.
And I am not allowed to talk to anyone about it.

What am I to do?

My trust in a valued friend is gone.
The more I try to forget the more I remember.
This pain is exquisite to bear.
I am broken, shattered, and lost in pain.
And I can not talk to anyone about it.

What am I to do?

Someone save me from my pain.
I look to God and He comforts me.
Yet, my wounds go so deep.
My soul is bleeding.
And I can not talk to anyone about it.

What am I to do?

I want to run, to nowhere.
Flee, flee for my soul.
Leave a trail of blood and tears.
So I will be the only one suffering.
And I can not talk to anyone about it.

What am I to do?

See my pain and pity me!
May this pass in time.
Let my trust return.
I WANT MY FRIEND BACK!!